I’m so happy that I can finally write this post. Looking back on all my “unmedicated” years, I’m shocked at what a difference a simple pill can make, but there it is. It’s true that meds are not the answer for everyone, and even if they are, it’s best to use them as part of your strategy to mental wellness, not as your catch-all. Still, I can’t understate how different, and by different, I mean better, I feel being back on my medication.
Because I had always wanted to have more than one kid, I decided to forego the meds after my first pregnancy. Having gone through that transition without it, I realize how hard it was on everyone around me. Hindsight is 20/20. I can’t go back and undo it. I regret all the times I lost my patience, or held myself or others to unrealistic standards, because I just needed some stability.
This time around, I’m calmer, more centered. I can’t say that I haven’t lost my patience or held myself to an unrealistic standard this time around, but I’m definitely going easier on myself and (I hope) everyone around me. I don’t have room in my heart for anger. I’m hoping 2017 gets to be the year where we all feel the love a bit more.