I don’t feel like myself lately. Not that I ever really knew who that was to begin with. But, it’s different now. I feel strange, like waking up from a dream or something.
My sense of humor has diminished. I used to be able to be silly at the drop of a hat, but not so much these days. I feel like I’ve taken a step back from my enmeshed life and am able to see the social structure and constructs as they unfold. People are very predictable. Is life really only anticipating what other people are going to do or say?
There have been lots of changes, things that are major departures from the way I lived my life a few years ago are now fully established habit. Still, they fit strangely, like someone else’s shoes.