I feel bad today. This time, however, it’s not the usual self-loathing and wallowing that I normally take part in. Today’s locus of bad thoughts stems from something outside of me or my control. Someone I see every day at work is being let go. Not that it wasn’t out of the blue or anything, because the position was temporary and advertised as such. And, in the weary corporate world, one’s job is only as good as its ability to be funded. For this person, the money has simply run out.
I remember what it was like when my husband was let go from his job. The fear and uncertainty we felt was a dark cloud hanging over all aspects of our lives. This morning, as I see her come in to work, I feel that same heavy cloud over her. Neither she nor her husband have had steady work for quite some time, and the short taste of the “good life” working with us (as dramatic and frustrating as it can be), seems cruel to simply end at the end of the year.
But, there’s nothing I can do. The decisions to change these circumstances are beyond my control and influence. I hold out hope that something will come along and their lives will be easier and happier (or at least financially stable) in the long run. Who knows what will happen?
Life rolls on, ever changing, without much consideration to how anyone feels about it. The way that the universe causes some paths to intersect for a time, I feel tries to show me something about myself and about the other person. I hope that she leaves here a better person than when she came on board, and hopefully I can also say the same.